i did not resurface.

kaboom.

i wonder why i care so much.

when he actually doesn't anymore.

well i do know that,

i care for the friendship.

and nothing else.

we weren't really close.

i never gave us a chance to be, i think.

and we didn't really have that time.

maybe we did, but i took him for granted.

all those times...

cos i was looking at someone else.

and that someone who's still connected with me.

dangit. i come across people from my past like in really unexpected moments.

when you feel like, 'okay dude. it's all in the past.'

but wth, not for me at all.

we'll always be connected.

i just really really hope those people can be really my friends like... friends friends.

i kind of miss having friends.

like, truest of true.

and friends of friends. super of super.

yeah.

i miss having friends.

i kind of am lost really recently.

my smiles don't really reach my eyes.