i wish i could let him know. but i dont have the courage to. well, what the hell, we're friends right? it's okay to miss a friend that's miles away from you right? 6 years have passed, man. 6 years. more even more than how much we knew each other. i mean, physically, he's been here for like 5 years. he left. 11 years of friendship. we weren't really close as in tight, but we're friends. i cared for him. he cared for me. he loved me. he wished i'd love him back. but we were young. we're older now, we know better. things changed. but we've had a past, at least. and i dont even know why the hell i miss him this much.

i just know that i should let go. not of him, not of the past memories of him. but of this thinking and feeling. he's thousand miles away, we don't stand a chance.

i guess, now that im older and i know better, i just realized that he has everything i want. it's just too late to realize. cant blame myself, right? we were YOUNG. we were really young.

maybe i just miss him, that's all. but since last week, he's always been in my mind. which sucks. i mean, it's not fair! i'm not even in his! :)) yeah i knowwwww. at least that's what i know. unless there's something he's not telling me. but what the hell right? it's all different. 6 years have passed, it's fairly impossible that he's feeling the same. life's not like the movies. at least in movies, that's how it turn out to be. but nu-uh, not in reality.

sucks like that.

maybe just talking to him like TALK, a real talk, would be okay. cos we never had that one these days.

so that's it! maybe i just miss him. gosh, i still care for him. :)